Second trimester: Weeks 20 – 23

Week 20 (June 15)
I had ordered a bunch of baby clothes from Carters and they arrived this week. I washed everything up and sorted by size and admired the cuteness. You know what’s really annoying about baby clothes? Even among the same brand, the sizes are so wacky. For example, some of the 3 month and 6 month onesies are the exact same size in length… Figure that one out.

I also spent three days painting the nursery! It was a LOT of work but I knew if I didn’t do it myself, it wouldn’t get done. I picked out a gorgeous colour at Canadian Tire in town called Island Aqua. Jordan helped move all the furniture to the very centre of the room and removed all the nails from the walls. After mudding the holes, I taped all the trim, etc. Then I spent two days with the windows wide open while I painted. Once the furniture was moved back into place, I couldn’t believe the transformation of the room! It looks amazing! We are going with a nautical theme and adding in aqua and navy blue accents. I replaced the pink and turquoise fabric drawers with navy and aqua. I’m still in need of curtains and throw rug. I decided to leave Khloë’s name on the wall where it’s always been. Baby boy will have his name on the wall above his crib. It was a LOT of work and I was completely exhausted by the end of each day but it was worth it.

On Thursday I saw Kilmeny, one of my midwives. She said the ultrasound results looked great and gave me a copy. Baby Boy’s heart rate is still in the high 150s, just like his sister. My blood pressure remained low at 88/56. And my total weight gain is 16 lbs!


Weeks 20-21

Week 21 (June 22)
Not much to report for this week in regard to symptoms, other than I think I’m starting to get some Braxton Hicks contractions. Looking at the photo above, I think my belly is popping out more. I have been selling some items and clothes I no longer need in order to make a little extra cash to buy Baby Boy some clothes. I also found the car seat I want to get; my mother-in-law is going to pay for it so I’m just waiting for it to go on sale.

Week 22 (June 29)
Definitely strong Braxton Hicks contractions! I get them quite often. They don’t hurt but can be uncomfortable; it feels like my bladder is being squeezed. After a trip to Walmart on Monday, I starting having some cramps that caused me to curl up on the sofa. I drank a glass of water and laid there for awhile and they went away. I think it’s just because I did a lot of walking around and then carrying all the groceries inside the house. I spent Tuesday at Amanda’s. We used their Silhouette machine to cut out the shape of an anchor and seahorse on 12×12″ scrapbook paper for me to frame in the baby’s room. They look really good in the nursery!

For Canada Day, it rained most of the day. I made chicken noodle soup in the slow cooker and mint chocolate chip cheesecake squares. We didn’t plan on going to any festivities. Holidays are hard without my girl because all I think about is that the previous year we did “this and this” etc with Khloë on a particular holiday. 🙁

We spent the weekend in Kingston with my family. The drive was long and uncomfortable. We stopped for BLTs and a toilet break at the half-way point gas station, but then I dreaded getting back in the car knowing there’s still another 1.5 hours to go. On the Saturday my sister Keesje came over to mom’s house and we made strawberry cupcakes for Ashe’s birthday party. I had already made and defrosted vanilla cupcakes. I whipped the frosting and dyed it blue. We also made decorations in the shapes of dog bones and paw prints; the party’s theme was “Paw Patrol”. That afternoon we all drove down to the cottage. Dinner was hamburgers! Sunday, July 5th was Ashe’s fourth birthday party! I will do a separate post with photos, but it was a beautiful, hot day and he was the perfect little host!


Weeks 22-23

Week 23 (July 6)
On Monday, while still in Kingston, I turned 23 weeks. We had a very long day. After saying goodbye to my mom, Jordan and I headed to Gananoque to Leeder Monuments. We finalized the design for Khloë’s headstone and base and paid for it in full. That’s a weight off our shoulders. It should be completely installed by mid-September. Then we went back to Kingston for some shopping; I had a couple gift cards for Toys R Us to spend. We found a couple outfits, socks, and a navy blue crib sheet with white anchors on it. By the time we got home it was 9 pm.

My sister had sent home with us 5 boxes of my nephew’s clothes, sized 12-18 months. I spent a few days of the week washing, sorting, and folding everything. I also turned 33 on Sunday, July 12th. We went to church in the morning and in the afternoon returned a video card to Staples. I’m definitely thinking of ordering a new computer! Mine is 8 years old and not worth upgrading anymore. On the way home we stopped for Wendy’s and then a hot fudge sundae, yum!

By the end of the week, I was 21 lbs up!

Second trimester: Weeks 18 – 19

Week 18 (June 1)
Mid-week I felt the baby moving around a lot on the outside, which was pretty cool. One more week to go and then we will hopefully find out if we are having a boy or girl! I think the anatomy scan is the most nerve-wracking ultrasound. I’ve gained 13 lbs.

Jordan is away on “adventure training” this week, which means he’s camping and rafting and having a grand ol’ time in the name of work. Must be nice! Since he was away, I had to keep myself busy. The house is so quiet when it’s just me. I had lunch with Amanda on Monday and we talked about crafting beautiful headbands and photography. On Wednesday I went to Prenatal Nutrition and back over to Amanda’s for the afternoon. They fed me a yummy dinner!

And on Friday, at our church, Watoto performed. They are a group of orphan kids from Uganda who sing and dance and they are amazing! The show was high-energy and the seats were packed. Jordan and I had volunteered our home to host some of the kids, so after the show two girls and an auntie came home with us and stayed the night. We gave them a late dinner, breakfast, and a packed lunch the next day. It was a neat experience!


Weeks 18-19

Week 19 (June 8)
Those kicks are definitely getting stronger and more frequent! On Thursday afternoon, Jordan and I went to the hospital for the anatomy scan. I was told to drink 3 glasses of water an hour before the appointment. I drank only two and was in complete agony by the time I was called in. The technologist had me pee right away. When I came back and laid down on the bed, she started the ultrasound but said that my bladder was still too full. I peed a second time. And then a third time before I was comfortable and she said she could continue. Wow, and that was only two glasses of water! I guess the baby was squirming too much from my full bladder. Although she told us that she can’t 100% confirm, it was very obvious that this baby is a BOY! There was no mistaking him for a girl. 😀 Everything else looked good, she said.

At the end of the week I picked up a box of almost brand-new newborn clothing for $25. I won’t need anything else in that size! The majority of the items are Carters brand, too. We also picked up a bunch of clothes from Value Village.

First trimester: Weeks 12 – 13

Week 12 (April 20)
I’m getting closer to the second trimester! Nausea improved this week, but I threw up my prenatal vitmain no matter what time of day I took it, even with food. I think I’ll stop taking it. The anatomy scan is booked for June 11th in Pembroke. If baby cooperates, we can find out if we are having a boy or girl! I don’t have a gut feeling for a specific gender.

On Monday I had the telemedicine conference with our genetic counselor from CHEO. I asked her if the baby’s cord blood can be used for SMA testing but she said it’s not a good idea as cord blood contains some of my DNA. So the plan is have baby’s blood drawn before we leave the hospital. I have to contact her a month before my due date to remind her, and then once we get home from the hospital contact her again so that she can make sure the test is rushed and double-check that SMN2 copies will be checked if the baby does have SMA.

So far I’ve gained 4 lbs. And my next midwife appointment is May 14th.


Weeks 12-13

Week 13 (April 27)
Some websites list Week 13 as the second trimester, and some say Week 14. I’ll keep this post as “first trimester”.

My belly has popped out a bit more this week. No nausea which meant I was able to eat a better variety of food. On Wednesday I went to Prenatal Nutrition group and we made a cold tuna potato salad which was surprizingly good, not to mention filling. And I ordered a new set of unisex Aden & Anais muslin swaddling blankets (white with silver, gray, or beige stars) and a set of gray bibs.

We have picked out a boy name, and have two options for girl!

First trimester: Weeks 6 – 7

Week 6 (March 9)
On Wednesday I went to the local hospital for my early dating ultrasound. The receptionist had told me to drink 1L of water an hour before the appointment, but I only managed 700mL and felt like my bladder was going to burst inside me. By the time I drove there, checked in, and changed into a hospital gown, I was in a considerable amount of pain. Once on the bed, the tech used the transducer on my abdomen. There were two technicians there, one lady training the other. Apparently my bladder was TOO FULL so I was allowed to pee a little. When I came back, the girl still seemed to be having issues finding anything. I mentioned to them that even though my LMP would have me at 8 weeks, I was 100% certain I was 6 weeks so it would be difficult to see anything through my abdomen. The trainer asked if I would allow a transvaginal ultrasound instead–which meant I could completely empty my bladder–and I said yes. YES! Now, for dating ultrasounds at this particular hospital, the techs are not allowed to tell me about anything they discover or even show me the screen. (This is because there is no radiologist on staff and the images have to be sent away for analysis.) Luckily at one point I heard the trainer say, “You didn’t need to measure gestational sac. You have crown to rump, right there.” Well, that confirmed to me that there was a baby! And at the end, she also said, “I’m not supposed to tell you anything, but I think your guess is right.” Ha!

On the weekend, Jordan and I stayed at my mom’s in Kingston. We checked out two different cemeteries in the Gananoque area. In the end, we decided that Khloë should be buried at the Willowbank by the huge tree at the back of the cemetery. Unfortunately it was pouring rain and snow up to our knees whilst tramping through the grounds, but we still found the perfect spot.


Weeks 6-7

Week 7 (March 16)
I’m starting to have issues with food in the mornings. Everything seems to turn my stomach. I have been eating a lot of bread, pasta, and salty crackers. Still feeling bloated and constantly tired.

On Friday I decided to head into Petawawa to get my blood work done. I kept putting it off because I hate needles. When I got there, the nurse said I was missing a form and sent me over to the doctor’s office where my midwives work (across the hall). I had to wait for Kilmeny to finish with her patient and give me the proper forms. Then back over to have my blood taken and to pee in a cup.

Eleven more days til Florida!

First trimester: Weeks 4 – 5

With my first pregnancy, I was pretty good at keeping track of everything. This time around, I have been forgetting to write things down when they happen. I do have a bunch of journal entries, they’re just not as detailed as I would have liked. As far as I can remember, this pregnancy is fairly similar to my first.

Deciding to have another baby, after losing Khloë, was not easy. When she was alive, Jordan and I always hoped that we could give her a sibling. I wanted to start trying as soon as possible, but I had to wait until my cycles came back–which they finally did when Khloë turned one year old. We know that there is a 25% chance that this baby will have SMA just like Khloë. That means there is a 75% chance that Baby will be perfectly healthy! 25% may seem like a small number, but to us, it’s the number we are most afraid of.

I am trying my hardest to stay positive about this pregnancy. Jordan and I are both very happy about it. We refused invasive genetic testing of the fetus (ie. amniocentesis or CVS) because the results would not change our decision about having the baby. Our plan, after a discussion with our genetic counselor, is baby’s blood will be taken after birth and sent away for testing. When Baby is a few weeks old, we will receive the results. That time frame will feel like an eternity, I don’t doubt.

Anyway, my due date is November 2nd, 2015. So here we go! 🙂

Week 4 (February 23)
The day my period was due, a Monday, I decided to pee on a stick! And lo and behold, it was very positive! I was pretty excited and felt like Khloë had sent us this wonderful gift a mere month after she went to Heaven. The new baby’s due date is November 2nd, which is actually a month before Khloë would have been 2 years old. Of course, after that first burst of excitement came this thought: What if this baby has SMA? I knew that, no matter what, I had to stay positive and deal with those crazy emotions day by day. As soon as Jordan came home from work, I showed him the test and he gave me a silly smile. It’s so hard to get a reaction out of him, but I could tell he was pretty happy!

That same day I contacted the midwife group I used before and left a message. The secretary called me back on Wednesday and said that they would be delighted to have me back! My first appointment was scheduled for March 5th. As for symptoms, this week I was feeling tired, hungry, with mild cramps and jabbings in my uterus. By the end of the week, I noticed my favourite jeans were pretty snug against my belly. Already?!

Week 5 (March 2)
First midwife appointment was on Thursday of this week. I met Megan for the first time (she was on maternity leave during my first pregnancy), and unfortunately I had to explain about Khloë’s diagnosis and passing. She was really sweet and empathetic. We talked about how my first pregnancy and labour went. She sent me home with a requisition for blood work and a dating ultrasound at the small local hospital. That same afternoon the hospital called and scheduled the ultrasound for March 11th. They think I’m actually going to drink a whole litre of water beforehand. Don’t make me laugh!

On Saturday, my mother-in-law called to let us know that the Florida trip was finalized! We are going to surprize them with the news in Florida.