Second trimester: Weeks 14 – 17

Week 14 (May 4)
Hello to the second trimester!

Mothers Day occurred this week. I wasn’t looking forward to it. Last year at this time, we took Khloë to the zoo and spent the weekend in Toronto. This year, she is gone. The hardest thing to come to terms with is being her mama but not having her with me to celebrate. Spending all these special holidays without her truly sucks.

On Saturday I felt the baby move for the first time! I felt a rolling sensation while I was sitting on the sofa. I felt it again later in the afternoon. In the evening the baby pushed right up against my lower belly.

Weeks 14-15

Week 15 (May 11)
My weight gain is 6.8 lbs according to the pregnancy app I use. I’m interested to see how much I gain this time around. With Khloë, I gained 38 lbs and gave birth two weeks early. My belly keeps getting in the way; I am definitely bigger this time around, equivalent to around 18 weeks with Khloë. I’ve been sleeping on my left side but tend to wake up on my back.

On Thursday I saw my midwife. The baby’s heart rate is 150 bpm and my blood pressure is low at 100/60. Weight gain was at 8.6 lbs.

We also spent Friday to Monday in Kingston for the long weekend. The Nicholsons looked after the baby chicks for us. On the Saturday we went to Leeder Monuments and picked out a beautiful red heart-shaped monument for Khloë. Then we stayed overnight at the cottage. I slept poorly because I kept having nightmares about saving Khloë’s life over and over again. My mom did a nice barbecue lunch for us on Sunday.

Week 16 (May 18)
I’m getting so anxious for the anatomy scan! A few more weeks away… Not much to report this week, other than we had the Nicholsons over for dinner. Their two boys love our chickens. They still talk about the time they were “chicken farmers” while we were away.

Weeks 16-17

Week 17 (May 25)
I cleaned up the blender and made my first summer smoothie this week. I love drinking them when it’s warm out–milk, banana, frozen berries, greens, yogurt, and probiotic. I even poured the leftovers into popsicle molds. And then later I made home-made fudgsicles! I was outside catching chickens on Thursday when I heard someone call my name. I turned around and there was my mom and aunt and uncle! They decided to stop in on their way up north for a quick visit. On the Sunday they actually stopped in on their way back from my cousin’s graduation. I made pasta salad, sausages, and lemon cream squares for lunch. I’m at 12 lbs gained.

Mothers Day without my baby

Mothers Day was not an easy day to get through. I kept thinking that, at this time the previous year, we had taken Khloë to the Toronto Zoo and spent the weekend with her Aunt Crystal and Uncle Lukas. And then this year… she is gone.

Memory for Mothers Day

I was happy to see that quite a few people wrote special messages about Khloë on my Facebook Timeline. I also received some texts from friends who have not forgotten my little girl. The above picture is not the best quality, but it is one of my favourite “selfies” taken with my Sweetpea. Her smiling face says it all! She was a shining star.

Sometimes it be that way *

I’m just sitting here this morning. Not up to much. Enjoying not having to get ready for work. I had a nine hour shift yesterday and a forty-five minute lunch. A few of us went over to Denny’s for some smothered cheese fries. They were sooooo goood! Work was pretty slow for the day before Mother’s Day. I was quite bored.

Amy showed up a half hour before close. I ended up talking to her for twenty-five minutes about various things that I will not go into detail about here and then she waited around til I was finished. We went out for dinner at Montana’s and I had a chicken quesadilla with sour cream. I hadn’t had one of those in quite a while; it was delicious. Afterward we came back to my apartment and chatted. She borrowed one of my favourite books: The Poisonwood Bible.

Today is not only Mother’s Day, but my Dad’s birthday, too!

I preordered Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows from Chapters. With it, I ordered two other books to read: Something Borrowed by Emily Giffin (read it in two days and loved it), and The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls (so far another good one). I still need to pick up the last few books in the “Shopaholic” series and the last one in the “Sisterhood” series. I love reading. 🙂

Well, Jordan’s flight to come home has been pushed back a week so now he won’t be home until the last week of May. I know it’s only an extra week from the original date but it still feels like it will take even longer for these days to pass. Sometimes I wonder what things we might have done this month, what movies we would have watched, what food we would have cooked. It’s like this month is a pause, or just doesn’t exist for us at all.