First trimester: Weeks 6 – 7

Week 6 (March 9)
On Wednesday I went to the local hospital for my early dating ultrasound. The receptionist had told me to drink 1L of water an hour before the appointment, but I only managed 700mL and felt like my bladder was going to burst inside me. By the time I drove there, checked in, and changed into a hospital gown, I was in a considerable amount of pain. Once on the bed, the tech used the transducer on my abdomen. There were two technicians there, one lady training the other. Apparently my bladder was TOO FULL so I was allowed to pee a little. When I came back, the girl still seemed to be having issues finding anything. I mentioned to them that even though my LMP would have me at 8 weeks, I was 100% certain I was 6 weeks so it would be difficult to see anything through my abdomen. The trainer asked if I would allow a transvaginal ultrasound instead–which meant I could completely empty my bladder–and I said yes. YES! Now, for dating ultrasounds at this particular hospital, the techs are not allowed to tell me about anything they discover or even show me the screen. (This is because there is no radiologist on staff and the images have to be sent away for analysis.) Luckily at one point I heard the trainer say, “You didn’t need to measure gestational sac. You have crown to rump, right there.” Well, that confirmed to me that there was a baby! And at the end, she also said, “I’m not supposed to tell you anything, but I think your guess is right.” Ha!

On the weekend, Jordan and I stayed at my mom’s in Kingston. We checked out two different cemeteries in the Gananoque area. In the end, we decided that Khloë should be buried at the Willowbank by the huge tree at the back of the cemetery. Unfortunately it was pouring rain and snow up to our knees whilst tramping through the grounds, but we still found the perfect spot.

Weeks 6-7

Week 7 (March 16)
I’m starting to have issues with food in the mornings. Everything seems to turn my stomach. I have been eating a lot of bread, pasta, and salty crackers. Still feeling bloated and constantly tired.

On Friday I decided to head into Petawawa to get my blood work done. I kept putting it off because I hate needles. When I got there, the nurse said I was missing a form and sent me over to the doctor’s office where my midwives work (across the hall). I had to wait for Kilmeny to finish with her patient and give me the proper forms. Then back over to have my blood taken and to pee in a cup.

Eleven more days til Florida!

First trimester: Weeks 4 – 5

With my first pregnancy, I was pretty good at keeping track of everything. This time around, I have been forgetting to write things down when they happen. I do have a bunch of journal entries, they’re just not as detailed as I would have liked. As far as I can remember, this pregnancy is fairly similar to my first.

Deciding to have another baby, after losing Khloë, was not easy. When she was alive, Jordan and I always hoped that we could give her a sibling. I wanted to start trying as soon as possible, but I had to wait until my cycles came back–which they finally did when Khloë turned one year old. We know that there is a 25% chance that this baby will have SMA just like Khloë. That means there is a 75% chance that Baby will be perfectly healthy! 25% may seem like a small number, but to us, it’s the number we are most afraid of.

I am trying my hardest to stay positive about this pregnancy. Jordan and I are both very happy about it. We refused invasive genetic testing of the fetus (ie. amniocentesis or CVS) because the results would not change our decision about having the baby. Our plan, after a discussion with our genetic counselor, is baby’s blood will be taken after birth and sent away for testing. When Baby is a few weeks old, we will receive the results. That time frame will feel like an eternity, I don’t doubt.

Anyway, my due date is November 2nd, 2015. So here we go! 🙂

Week 4 (February 23)
The day my period was due, a Monday, I decided to pee on a stick! And lo and behold, it was very positive! I was pretty excited and felt like Khloë had sent us this wonderful gift a mere month after she went to Heaven. The new baby’s due date is November 2nd, which is actually a month before Khloë would have been 2 years old. Of course, after that first burst of excitement came this thought: What if this baby has SMA? I knew that, no matter what, I had to stay positive and deal with those crazy emotions day by day. As soon as Jordan came home from work, I showed him the test and he gave me a silly smile. It’s so hard to get a reaction out of him, but I could tell he was pretty happy!

That same day I contacted the midwife group I used before and left a message. The secretary called me back on Wednesday and said that they would be delighted to have me back! My first appointment was scheduled for March 5th. As for symptoms, this week I was feeling tired, hungry, with mild cramps and jabbings in my uterus. By the end of the week, I noticed my favourite jeans were pretty snug against my belly. Already?!

Week 5 (March 2)
First midwife appointment was on Thursday of this week. I met Megan for the first time (she was on maternity leave during my first pregnancy), and unfortunately I had to explain about Khloë’s diagnosis and passing. She was really sweet and empathetic. We talked about how my first pregnancy and labour went. She sent me home with a requisition for blood work and a dating ultrasound at the small local hospital. That same afternoon the hospital called and scheduled the ultrasound for March 11th. They think I’m actually going to drink a whole litre of water beforehand. Don’t make me laugh!

On Saturday, my mother-in-law called to let us know that the Florida trip was finalized! We are going to surprize them with the news in Florida.

Second trimester: Weeks 18 – 21

Week 18 (July 15)
The cold was gone by this week, but I was left with a persistent cough that kept me up at night. I have had a craving for peanut butter on toast. Mid-week, while I was sitting at my computer, I had a sharp pain at the top of my belly (right side) that lasted maybe 20 seconds. It spread to my back and was quite painful. I was a little concerned but it only happened the one time that day. For the rest of the week I would get that pain a couple times throughout the day but it would be very quick and not leave me breathless like that first one.

On the 19th, while sitting on the couch, I felt something poking behind my belly button. It happened 3 times in the span of 15 minutes so I believe I finally felt the baby kick! A storm rolled in that afternoon and I lost power and water for 2 days, which wasn’t fun.

I also dropped off urine sample at the end of the week. Next midwife appointment is August 1st.

Weeks 18-19

Weeks 18-19

Week 19 (July 22)
The pains at the top of my belly continued so I left a message on the non-urgent line. I just wanted to make sure that what I was feeling was normal. Suki called me back and said it’s probably just muscles stretching and organs moving around. No other symptoms to report. I’ve gained 11 lbs total.

Week 20 (July 29)
The anatomy scan ultrasound! Drove to the big hospital early as instructed. They were behind so we had a bit of a wait. I didn’t drink as much liquid as last time, but rather than water I drank orange juice. I think the scan lasted a good 45 minutes. The technician was super nice. She told me that the baby’s head is pointing down and the bum is upward, with the feet out to the right. At the end of the ultrasound, she brought Jordan in and showed him the baby and pointed out that we are having a baby GIRL!

At the end of the week I saw the substitute midwife again. She explained that everything looked great with the ultrasound. Placenta is in the front and there’s a normal amount of amniotic fluid. We heard the heartbeat again (140 bpm) and Baby Girl is in the right spot. My urine sample showed no UTI. Blood pressure normal. Up 12 lbs total. Next appointment I will see Suki, on August 30th.

Weeks 20-21

Weeks 20-21

Week 21 (August 5)
So far this pregnancy has been pretty uneventful. Nothing new or weird to report for this week, other than gaining a total of 14 lbs so far. My belly seems to have popped out!

First trimester: Weeks 4 – 13

The reason this post has taken so long to show up is because I wasn’t sure how to put it together. I have been keeping a journal and taking weekly pictures of my growing bump. My due date is December 16th, 2013. 😀

Week 4
I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant on a Friday. I had waited 6 days past my longest luteal phase, then peed on a stick. I kind of had an inkling that something felt different, and I was ecstatic to see that plus sign show up! After all our fertility issues over the years, this was finally happening. It also felt very unreal. My earlier symptoms were typical of “that time of the month”, except that I tired easily. I had assumed my exhaustion was from shoveling the driveway every single day! (Yes, we still had snow.) After the weekend passed, I called the local midwife centre and left my information, hoping that they would have room for me as I didn’t have a doctor here. Two days later I received the great news that I would have a midwife!

Week 5 (April 15)
These were my symptoms that week: peeing way more than I normally did (and I usually pee a LOT); constantly feeling like I needed to put food in my belly; mild period-like cramps; that wonderful bloated feeling; and the need to nap every afternoon for 30 minutes to an hour. I hadn’t been sick to my stomach yet. The only thing that worried me was sometimes I would get a sharp, stabbing pain that would double me over (in Canadian Tire, no less). However, there’d been no spotting or bleeding. My first midwife appointment would be April 26th.

Week 6 (April 22)
This week I met Kilmeny, one of the midwives I would be seeing throughout my pregnancy. We discussed my health history; I explained about my abnormally long cycles and that because I temped I knew when I had ovulated and that I was due December 16th. She gave me a requisition to have blood work done (eek!) and explained that I would need a dating ultrasound to be sure.

The only new symptom this week was queasiness. My next appointment was set up for May 31st.

Weeks 6-7

Weeks 6-7

Week 7 (April 29)
Where we live, there are two hospitals. The smaller one is located about a 10 minute drive from our house. The larger one, where I’ve chosen to give birth, is more like 40 minutes. For the dating ultrasound, I chose the closer hospital to go to. That appointment was set for May 28th. The receptionist on the phone explained that I would not be allowed to see the baby on the screen or be given any information regarding the ultrasound. (The reasoning behind this is because the small hospital doesn’t have a radiologist on staff and the ultrasound images would be sent away to be examined. I would receive the information 3 days later.)

Still no “morning sickness”, but the queasiness bothered me. I found myself eating a lot of bagels and cottage cheese.

Week 8 (May 6)
Nothing new to note in regard to symptoms. I went in for bloodwork, which I’m normally okay with even though I’m not a fan of needles. What helps me get through it is to just look away and breathe slowly. Unfortunately, near the end of the second phial of blood, the nurse told me that my vein had collapsed and she might have to find another one. As soon as those words were out of her mouth, I began to feel faint and a cold sweat broke out on my face and neck. My body started shaking in reaction. The nurse squished my vein a bit and happily said that she had been able to fill the last phial. She noticed that I was about to faint and immediately had me put my head between my knees. After she bandaged my arm, she had me lay down with an ice pack on my neck. I think I laid there for a good 20 minutes before I started to feel like a normal person again. I have never reacted that way to bloodwork before! I felt ill and light-headed the rest of the day and slept for 2 hours after arriving home.

Weeks 8-9

Weeks 8-9

Week 9 (May 13)
Where the heck did that belly come from?! Almost overnight it looked like I had developed a “food baby”. Since most of my tops were fitted, it was difficult to disguise unless I wore a zip-up hoodie. My jeans became too tight buttoned up, so I had to wear them undone but with a hair elastic holding them closed. Stretchy yoga pants were my new best friend. I hadn’t gained any weight, but the queasiness disappeared!

I decided to tell my mom on Skype the good news and show off my brand-new gut. She completely freaked out–with happiness–and I almost peed myself laughing at her reaction!

Week 10 (May 20)
This week Jordan and I drove to Ottawa to shop for some maternity clothes before he went away for the summer. I found one pair of jeans that fit my tiny frame properly and one long black skirt at “Motherhood Maternity”. Maternity clothes are really expensive and most of them are way too big on me. (No surprize there, as normal clothes tend to not fit me properly either.)

Sciatica started to bother me around this time. I’ve suffered from sciatica over the years so it wasn’t anything new. We also Skyped with the in-laws and Jordan’s grandparents and told them about the baby. The reason we told them so early was because I wanted them to hear the news from both of us and not after Jordan left for a tasking up north. Still need to tell my dad.

Weeks 10-11

Weeks 10-11

Week 11 (May 27)
I sent my dad an email with a photo of my bump and the note to “call me when you get this!” Took him a couple days to check his email, but he called and joked that I must have been eating too many hamburgers. He’s excited!

I had the dating ultrasound this week. I was told to drink 1 litre of water but I only drank 500 mL and thought I was gonna die from the pain in my bladder. Before leaving for the hospital, I peed and then drank a bit more but I still couldn’t walk unless I was bent over. The drive over was supreme torture. During the sonogram, I swear the technologist kept pushing the transducer directly onto my bladder! Finally she told me to go to the bathroom because my bladder was too full. No kidding!? As stated before, Jordan wasn’t allowed in the room and I didn’t get to see the screen while she finished the ultrasound. I wanted a confirmation that there was only one baby in there but the tech said I’d have to wait for the results.

My appointment for May 31st was cancelled due to another woman going into labour. Rescheduled for June 4th. I was dying to know the results of the ultrasound. On the phone, Suki explained that my iron levels were excellent and that everything looked great with the baby! She confirmed that I was 11 weeks along and due December 16th (no surprize there).

Week 12 (June 3)
My midwife appointment with Kilmeny this time was quick and painless. She asked if we had given any thought to prenatal classes, but I honestly don’t think we will go. For starters, Jordan will be away on course during my third trimester (oh the joy of being a military wife) and can’t guarantee that he can come home on specific weekends. She used the Doppler to search for a heartbeat, but it was too early in my pregnancy to hear it. Next appointment was set up for July 4th and would be with a substitute midwife. No new symptoms to report.

Weeks 12-13

Weeks 12-13

Week 13 (June 10)
The skin on my belly was starting to feel stretched and sensitive around this time. Sciatica was causing me pain in my lower back and hips, making stairs difficult (or getting out of bed, or up off the couch, etc). Occasionally I found my ribs aching. I continued to eat as normal, with the addition of extra fruit and vegetables, and successfully gained 4 lbs! Up to this point I hadn’t thrown up or had any bleeding.